I haven't posted in a while. That is because I haven't really had anything interesting to say. I still don't have anything interesting to say. I just need to vent.
I'm now 31 years old. I don't really have anything to show for my life. A few meaningless awards. Music. Sports cards. All shit really. I've tried to fill my empty life up with that crap. I hoped that those thing would distract me from the void.
I want to have a kid but I'm not sure if I really want to or if I just thimk it would make my life more interesting. The latter isn't a valid reason to have a child, but plenty do it for that reason.
Much like my favorite anti-hero, Pippin, I feel that there has to be more to life than what I've seen. I'm not looking for religion or a job or anything like that. There is so much more I want to do, but I feel like I've lost too much time already.
If it is a midlife crisis, it started early. I've felt this way since I was in my early 20s. It is always worse around my birthday, though. ...and I'm sure what happened in the past year or so made this feeling even worse.
I also can't let go of the past which I am sure is part of the entire thing.
Amazingly enough I typed thing whole thing on my phone.
Hi Joseph, Don't know much about you, maybe a little, but couldn't help respond to this post of yours. Just wanted to suggest- why Not a job?? You can also work from home I suppose? Just thinking about you...Hope you didn't mind..:)
ReplyDeleteYeah, working from home would be fine. I just don't want a job where I have to go to an office building from 9-5 everyday.
ReplyDeleteAh... children. Yes they are non stop excitement, that's for sure. You have done a lot in the 31 years on the planet though... what really drives you? Do more of that. :D
ReplyDeleteThat of course is coming from moi, the domestic goddess who loves nothing more than routine. :) good luck, Joseph.