I haven't posted in a while. That is because I haven't really had anything interesting to say. I still don't have anything interesting to say. I just need to vent.
I'm now 31 years old. I don't really have anything to show for my life. A few meaningless awards. Music. Sports cards. All shit really. I've tried to fill my empty life up with that crap. I hoped that those thing would distract me from the void.
I want to have a kid but I'm not sure if I really want to or if I just thimk it would make my life more interesting. The latter isn't a valid reason to have a child, but plenty do it for that reason.
Much like my favorite anti-hero, Pippin, I feel that there has to be more to life than what I've seen. I'm not looking for religion or a job or anything like that. There is so much more I want to do, but I feel like I've lost too much time already.
If it is a midlife crisis, it started early. I've felt this way since I was in my early 20s. It is always worse around my birthday, though. ...and I'm sure what happened in the past year or so made this feeling even worse.
I also can't let go of the past which I am sure is part of the entire thing.
Amazingly enough I typed thing whole thing on my phone.
